But really that had me browsing through pictures on my phone recently since that's my main camera for recording my life, and it's kind of hilariously made up of two things for the past few months: bread in various stages and animals that my cat has killed and brought to the door. Which is even more hilarious when you know that my 1st grade science project was titled "Animals that my cats catch." So yeah.
Anyway. I'm making regular loaf bread today from the Joy of Cooking, and tomorrow I'm going to do Casatiello, which is an enriched Italian bread that has chunks of cheese and salami in it. I haven't gone grocery shopping for the extra ingredients yet, which is why it's waiting till tomorrow.
Been working on my Teen Wolf fic this week. I'm kind of feeling like I want to clear off what's ongoing before starting something really new. I'm still messing with Dragon Age short fic, but I don't really have a direction for a lot of that, though I'm thinking I might once I get to some mysterious critical mass.
Still been reading a lot of Dragon Age fic. This week's rec is
Haven (256723 words) by SageFic
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Cullen Rutherford/Female Mage Trevelyan
Summary: Kate Trevelyan, mage and earnest, genteel nerd, travels to the Conclave with Colleen Lavellen, an ex-Dalish-turned-librarian, and Robert Trevelyan, her charming smuggler cousin. But when the Divine's peace talks explode, Robert falls in with bad company, Coll finds herself chasing mercs, and Kate becomes...the Herald of Andraste? Sort of. Kate has absolutely NO idea what she’s doing, and her growing attraction to a certain former templar isn’t helping.
Why I love it: This covers just the time in Haven starting a little before the game with some really great character work throughout. Basically I love this story for the conversations you get between characters. It delves into the mage-templar conflict, and really sets up a nice discussion between mage!Trevelyan and Cullen about Kirkwall that is really well done and not seen very often. Early scenes include Divine Justinia, and there's a lot of good daily life included. It diverges enough from gameplay to keep it interesting. I'm not a huge fan of the Lavellen or male!Traveleyan characters that are included, or the epistolary chapters, but over all it's good.
Muscles in the thigh - VMO, lateralis, the big quad one, the sartorius one across, adductors on the inside, abductors on the outside. VMO needs extra strengthening due to hypermobility. The small stabilising muscles tend to give up, then the big muscles compensate, and that's why my hamstrings get tight all the time. Then the hip/bum ones like glute max and glute mede also need help, particularly the latter.
Making sure things activate in the right order is hard. If the lateralis activates before the VMO instead of at the same time, then my kneecap slides sideways and that's one of the reasons it hurts. Trying to activate the VMO first will retrain it so they both go at the same time.
Now for the fun twist - if you see something you want to read more of, tell me in comments and I'll work on more tonight and post it.
Short stuff in progress
The Dragon Age stuff
post-Awakenings, Cousland Warden: Alistair arrives with more recruits (Anders POV)
Origins, Ian Tabris: Camp with Sten and Alistair
Awakenings, Ian Tabris: Dear Zev
Inquisition, Danielle Trevelyan: Advisors Council (Cullen POV)
Inquisition, Danielle Trevelyan: Recruits (Cullen POV)
Inquisition, Danielle Trevelyan: In Sera's Wake
Inquisition, Danielle Trevelyan: Iron Bull and the Chargers
Inquisition, Danielle Trevelyan: Aftermath of the dreadnought run
Inquisition, Danielle Trevelyan: Exalted Plains with Bull and Dorian
Inquisition, Danielle Trevelyan: Ian and Zevran arrive
The Inquisition Job, Leverage crossover: Joining the Inquisition
Werewolf!Sheriff #5: Constructive Interference, or Derek gets a job
dark!Merlin/Arthur non-con sequel to Look Into the Light
Long stuff in progress
Excerpt from the giant Derek builds a pack story that's currently stalled
The 100/Teen Wolf
Excerpt from the giant fusion crossover where the 100 kids crash into Laura Hale's territory
These are all the ones that feel active. I have a few half-formed ideas for Sense8 (Will and Wolfgang taking care of each other was the one that stuck in my head), and Black Sails (I want all the post-s4 John/Madi reconciliation fic but I don't want to write it), and Yuri on Ice domestic fluff (that other people have already written so), and some older long stories (Merlin) and short stories (Leverage) that have kind of been backburnered off my radar, but I'm willing to talk ideas too. Basically, I just want to talk story ideas even if they never come to anything, and I might just start talking of all the fic that never was or has yet to be anyway.
Last weekend I made rich man's brioche and regular wheat/white sandwich bread. The brioche had to sit in the fridge and then I had to wait an extra day when I didn't have time to finish it Monday so I made the sandwich bread for the week too. Also, let's be real, I needed to make bread that didn't have 2 cups of butter in it. OMG so much butter! The dough for the brioche was really squishy because it was mostly butter. It came out pretty well. I lost a little air when I put the egg wash on a little late in the rising process. After a couple days, they really need jam to go with them, though since it's gotten a little dry.
I think I'm going to skip the next recipe in the book because it's an Italian version of brioche and move on to Challah.
I've got to say that the AO3's History and Mark for Later functions have made cross-device browsing and remember what I've read so much easier. Two recs this week.
Inquisition, Indiana (109551 words) by Paperclippe
Fandom: Dragon Age: Inquisition, Dragon Age (Video Games), Dragon Age - All Media Types
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence
Relationships: Cullen Rutherford/Original Character(s)
Summary: "Eleanor was painting her house when the sky opened up." When a Breach opened on Eleanor's Indiana farm, everything changed. Now she must lead forces on her side of the Breach to help stop a threat no one suspected could ever occur on Earth. Are her mind - and her heart - strong enough?
Why I loved it: I was not expecting to love this. It's a reversal of the trope so the Inquisition ends up in our world on a farm in our Indiana where our Modern Girl lives. But it's well written with a nice plot and the OC is well done as Cullen and their romance. I think what I live about it is we get to see the characters we're familiar with - Dorian and Varric are also featured - adapting to our world instead of the other way around, which I found quite refreshing.
Scars and Love series (first story below, but I'm reccing all of them)
Scars and Healing (11950 words) by RedHawkeRevolver
Fandom: Dragon Age - All Media Types, Dragon Age (Video Games), Dragon Age: Inquisition
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Female Inquisitor/Cullen Rutherford, Cullen Rutherford/Female Trevelyan
Series: Part 1 of Scars and Love
Summary: Cullen has many, and Evelyn loves them all even as she does her best to try and erase the ones he keeps hidden.
Why I loved it: This hits all my buttons. Nice, well written love story, smoking hot sex, and competent and fleshed out Inquisitor and Cullen.
Actually, I pretty much read everything DA that RedHawkeRevolver wrote and it's all good. The one below was another favorite of hers.
Used (29874 words) by RedHawkeRevolver
Fandom: Dragon Age: Inquisition, Dragon Age (Video Games), Dragon Age - All Media Types
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Female Mage Inquisitor/Cullen Rutherford, Cullen Rutherford/Female Trevelyan,
Additional Tags: Angst, Self-Harm, Post-Trespasser, Evelyn's Unhappy Ending, Blood Magic, Depression, Cullen is saving Templars, But can he save her?, This is actually turning pretty fluffy, I REGRET NOTHING, babies ever after
Summary: Evelyn made sure everyone would have a happy ending, even if it was at the expense of her own.
Why I loved it: A post-Trespasser look at how the Inquisitor, depressed and in a really bad place gets out of it with Cullen's help. They never got together in the game-time period, so it's a getting together story too. It treats depression and addiction and disabilty as the life-changing events they can be, and is really about how to live and love yourself and each other and keep moving on. It's got a lot of warnings, but it doesn't dwell, and the self-harm is the one that's most graphic.
Also, I'm going to be petty and anti-rec everything written by CES479 because despite the popularity of her stories they are everything that I hate about how some romance relationships are developed - two people at odds in a very destructive way that in the real world would end in divorce after 6 months. I've been thinking about this a lot recently because her Inquisitor strikes me as an actual Mary Sue, as in what people mean when they deride the Female OC - she's snarky, always right, etc, and while a lot of that won't bother me if it's well written and the character feels like a person, here what I see as appalling behavior doesn't get punished in the narrative. I think at it's heart what I hate about how she writes the romance is the disrespect between the OC Inquisitor and Cullen. The OC is treating him horribly, why would he like her - except he does and then I lose respect for Cullen, and nope out of the story.
Maybe it's because with my recent marriage, working together to plan the damn wedding, and reading and thinking a lot about how and why relationships work, but I can't stand when a relationship is supposed to be romantic because one person just can't help but love the other, even though the other is terrible. I think the author has some awareness of this, since she had a second story basically set after they broke up about them getting back together, which is how I started reading her stuff in the first place, but even that felt forced and like it was ignoring all the reasons they broke up in the first place.
The Spinal Cord Injury Empowerment Project by the University of Washington has excellent videos on wheelchair skills. The American accent and cheery tone grates after a while, but it's very useful info and nicely bite-sized.
Anyway, if I write in here at all, I'm going to count it as writing, at least at first. If I end up having a Real Writing Project, then I might only count writing toward that specific goal. But for now, anything counts. I'm trying to make this as easy for myself as possible.
That said, I want to try to have a significant number of words. I'm not sure what my initial goal of a word count should be. Does anyone have a number that's worked for you?
The exercise category - really, the entire plan in general - is because I've been struggling with fatigue for a while now. I've already talked to my gp, and I'm having some bloodwork rechecked. I have slightly high blood sugar (not enough to place me in the range for diabetes or even prediabetes, but enough that my doctor put me on a low dose of metformin). The doctor is rechecking my blood sugar levels to see if the metformin is working and also rechecking my hemoglobin. She's also doing a complete blood check again, I think. Yay for being thorough.
I also want to exercise because I have a trip to Seattle coming up in December. I'm super-excited about it, but I know it will involve walking, and I want to be in better cardio shape. I'm in terrible shape right now, honestly, so anything will be an improvement. I'm going to take a yoga class this Saturday, and I've already paid for three individual classes. Then I ordered a Yoga/Pilates thing for the Wii that I'm planning to use after that. I feel like I can't afford to take regular live classes right now, but I think the initial ones will be good for getting myself back into yoga. When I'm not doing yoga, I plan to walk...though that's tricky because it's super hot in Florida right now. I might need to wake up early and do it.
In terms of the fatigue, I also have anxiety and depression that I'm being medicated for (see previous entry); I'm not sure if maybe I have some sort of low-level depression that's surfacing even through the meds that I'm taking. That would really suck, if so. It's something I should talk with my psychiatrist, Dr. N, about.
My other issue is that I'm having trouble falling asleep at night. (This is even with a sleeping pill, Lunesta.) Since I'm having trouble sleeping at night, I tend to nap during the day, which exacerbates the entire problem. I'm going to try to do a better job of regulating my sleep schedule. This seems next to impossible right now, but it's absolutely necessary. I think the spreadsheet will be more for tracking my sleep than changing it at first. Then I can show it to Dr. N. and have a sense for how much I'm sleeping and when.
I feel like this is the most boring journal entry that anyone's ever written, but I'm keeping it public just in case someone else is reading who has been procrastinating on self-care or dealing with fatigue.
The Inquisition Job 1/?
Leverage/Dragon Age Inquisition
based on this
Characters: Parker, Hardison, Eliot
currently only posted to DW
Hardison stared up at the sky that had two moons in it. He stared up at the two moons and figured he must have hit his head and was seeing double, but then no, why were they in different parts of the sky in different phases that didn't make sense, and oh, yeah, Two. Moons.
"Why are there two moons in the sky?" he asked the world in general, and Parker and Eliot in particular in a nice even tone of voice. He was cool. Totally cool. Except for the way his heart was hammering, his back was throbbing, and he could feel the panic coming on like an old friend who knows when to show up in a bad situation.
"I don't know. Why aren't we in an office building? Hardison, get off me," Eliot said from somewhere near Hardison's kidney. He rolled, Eliot shoved. They ended up more tangled up before they straightened out, and ow. The ground was fucking hard.
"Uh, guys?" Parker was already on her feet, crouched nearby. Except for the paleness of her face and the wisps of hair that weren't caught up under her black beanie she was a shadow in the night. A shadow with green overtones.
Hardison looked up to where she was pointing at the big swirly green clouds directly above them.
"I don't like the look of that," she said.
( in which our OT3 fall through a hole in the sky )